Posted 23 September 2008 - 10:18 PM
Update: There were signs everywhere telling me not to go. I refused to listen.
-My college prior was proving to be difficult to transfer my credits.
- I got nothing from FAFSA
-family in severe money problems
- my friend whom I was moving there with, had to give her money for the move to her family.
-whatever money I had, I did the same thing with.
- banks were not giving me loans bc of prior bad credit.
- i got into a relationship
- my credits didn't transfer.
After the last one, I sort of broke down and realised it wasn't going to happen. When my friends, family, and co-workers found out I wasn't leaving, they heaved a sigh of relief... then said 'I could've told you it wasn't going to happen'. I was pissed, because I was doing everything in my power to go there, and it STILL didn't happen. I think it was mainly because the greater part of me wanted to leave for all the wrong reasons. Then I started realising that no matter what, I couldn't escape this life if I moved out of the continent. I just began to make it better for myself.
But I am happy. I got fired from that job. Now I work in retail, which I love, with clothing and accesories very similar to the ones I used to design as a teen. If I am a good girl, I can slowly, but surely make my way up to designer (which is my goal). I've started doing up some drawings I will show my boss in a couple of months, see if the company can afford it. :)
I'm also looking into Cosmetology school for next fall, since my credit is better, and I will be able to file independent for FAFSA, I am set.
I am madly inlove with my boyfriend, he's been super supportive, even when he thought I was moving to Chicago. My family situation is stable, next year this apartment will be most likely signed over to my brother and I (I think it's possible, we aren't too sure still), and eerything is good. The occasional stress comes and goes in my life...but I am happy with where I am right now.
and that's all that matters.