[Veronica Dreadful]

^That's interesting. I wish I were clever enough to do soul searching in high school. It was a great time because I had discovered so many new things. At the same time, I was rather vapid and clueless and lived in my little bubble.

[Incubation Station]

Well, I'm in high school and overall, I know who I am, but I definatley don't know what I'm good for. I can do bookwork and I'm booksmart, but when I graduate, I don't know what I'm going to do/go/be as I grow older. It's quite frightening.

[Veronica Dreadful]

My beauty would blow you away, on Nov 20 2007, 05:17 PM, said:

Well, I'm in high school and overall, I know who I am, but I definatley don't know what I'm good for. I can do bookwork and I'm booksmart, but when I graduate, I don't know what I'm going to do/go/be as I grow older. It's quite frightening.

OMGOSH I feel the same way. I'm very book smart, but is it very practical? I think the trick is to take those booksmarts and apply it to something practical. I already have a "practical" goal of action but what will come of it? The field towards which I am working is highly selective..but who am I kidding? I've gotten highly selective positions in the past. CONFIDENCE is key.

[ale]

Not knowing what career to pursuit is not an existential crisis...

[Veronica Dreadful]

ale, on Nov 20 2007, 10:55 PM, said:

Not knowing what career to pursuit is not an existential crisis...

It's a part of questioning the meaning of your existence and life's purpose, smartass.

[Mysterious Traveller]

Bradford Cox claims to be a high school dropout.

[Nicol Mtz.]

Issac Brock spent 10 days in jail for attempted murder.

[janelane]

mine came at the tender age of ten when i my dad finally told me that my step-mom was not in fact my real mother and that i also had a different culture apart from the one that i previously believed to have. big shocker for a ten year old, i pretty much became a depressed mess.

[Veronica Dreadful]

janelane, on Nov 20 2007, 11:59 PM, said:

mine came at the tender age of ten when i my dad finally told me that my step-mom was not in fact my real mother and that i also had a different culture apart from the one that i previously believed to have. big shocker for a ten year old, i pretty much became a depressed mess.

Lordy, that's a lot to take in at such a young age. When my parents got divorced, I was okay with it. Everyone else's parents got divorced. I thought it was chic.

[Mysterious Traveller]

Veronica Dreadful, on Nov 20 2007, 08:01 PM, said:

I thought it was chic.

Oh, God. That is funny.

[janelane]

Veronica Dreadful, on Nov 20 2007, 07:01 PM, said:

Lordy, that's a lot to take in at such a young age. When my parents got divorced, I was okay with it. Everyone else's parents got divorced. I thought it was chic.

ha, but the real trouble began when my real mom came back into the picture, it was like all of a sudden i had two fucking moms and i didn't know what to do with either of them.

[KiwiBoo]

mine happened about 4 months ago
my life was just in the crapper so to speak
and i questioned "why am i here?"
"is someone torturing me for enjoyment?"
a few people know what im talking about
but that was the lowest point in my life
and i never want to go back

[foxglove]

When I was around 11 or 12, I definitely went through some sort of existential crisis. I felt like my life was going so fast, and I was afraid of forgetting my childhood. I started writing down nearly everything that I did in a day so I could read it it when I was older and remember. I would sit up at night and think about how short life is, and how someday I was going to die. The thing is, there weren't any significant events in my life that would have caused this. I was just a weird kid.

[theGuide]

Alemania, on Nov 20 2007, 09:14 PM, said:

When I was around 11 or 12, I definitely went through some sort of existential crisis. I felt like my life was going so fast, and I was afraid of forgetting my childhood. I started writing down nearly everything that I did in a day so I could read it it when I was older and remember. I would sit up at night and think about how short life is, and how someday I was going to die. The thing is, there weren't any significant events in my life that would have caused this. I was just a weird kid.

I don't think many twelve year olds can have what you would call an "Existential Crisis", they have barely been born....

[Mysterious Traveller]

I had my first one when I was around a year old. I was like, "What the fuck am I? What is my purpose?"

[Not Thurston Moore Maybe]

Alemania, on Nov 20 2007, 11:14 PM, said:

When I was around 11 or 12, I definitely went through some sort of existential crisis. I felt like my life was going so fast, and I was afraid of forgetting my childhood. I started writing down nearly everything that I did in a day so I could read it it when I was older and remember. I would sit up at night and think about how short life is, and how someday I was going to die. The thing is, there weren't any significant events in my life that would have caused this. I was just a weird kid.

Weirdo/worry wart.

[skellingon]

Veronica Dreadful, on Nov 19 2007, 12:08 PM, said:

I am undergoing one at the moment. I am still trying to figure out my life's purpose. I have a career in mind, and it's a good one, but what could I do to help the universe in some way? Where exactly do I fit in the universe?

I had a little talk about this with a meditation teacher and he gave me this answer:

This life we are living is impossible; how the hell are we made out of pure nothingness, the void? As far as I can see it we're a miracle in this universe and life is too precious to waste so just live.

Kinda far fetched but it's something to think about. I'd like to agree to this to an extent, but I also believe that everyone should find their true calling in life.

[foxglove]

Not Thurston Moore Maybe, on Nov 20 2007, 10:31 PM, said:

Weirdo/worry wart.

I was a strange child. haha
this phase only lasted a few months, though, because I got sick of writing everything down.

[stella diver x]

I'm definitely in one right now.

I have no idea who the fuck I am or what I'm doing here, but it certainly is exciting.

In Wisconsin, I totally lost myself- figured life is short and had a very nihilistic view. Might as well live dangerously sorta thing.

All I can think of is the Missing Person's song - Destination Unknown.


http://www.youtube.c...h?v=XbHexmNvwYY

[antigone]

I've always been a terrible worrier and when I hit 15/16, it was hell on earth. I was relentlessly bullied by a group of twats because they assumed my family was wealthy when in actual fact the family business almost went under (we practically lost everything). My father continued his extra-marital activities despite the fact that we moved to that shit-hole town because of it in the first place. My older brother actually caught my dad at it - can you fucking believe it? He beat the crap out of him and it was just an unbelievably embarrassing experience. I was also extremely unhappy with the way I looked as I got a bit chubby and everyone was saying how fat and ugly I was becoming.

Then again, I panicked when we moved to Greece and I had a series of shitty, awful jobs with no future in sight. I became very depressed and felt very hopeless. My life felt empty and pointless and I often contemplated suicide. It made me wonder why everything seems to work out for some people but absolutely nothing was working out for me.

I don't feel that way now because I got a permanent post and I believe this will change things quite a bit. I don't feel so very trapped and hopeless but I am running out patience because the entire process is taking ages. I wish I felt more fulfilled and life had meaning but I'm happy enough not wanting to throw myself offa bridge or under a truck.

[evy]

i had one of those a few months ago. after finding out about my dad having another family (whilst still being married to my mom), that a person i loved had actually lied to me, and that it didn't seem like i was ever going to get out of here, i had a melt down. I wondered why I was here, What i was doing, and felt like i was going to spend the rest of my life living in NY miserably. I have a job, and although I love it, it isn't what i wanted to do all my life. I've always wanted to be an artist, a designer, a phootgrapher, and a psychologist (of sorts). I want to do so many things, and I felt I couldn't. I freaked out and had a nervouse breakdown. I began some sort of downward spiral of drinking and drugs, just to ease the feeling that I had absolutely no control over myself or my life.I didn't know what to do.

Then I just woke up and said 'I have to get out of here'. So I started looking at new places to live. Then I realised, that I no longer wanted to be in NY. I realised that NY was my comfort zone, and that I have been having it easy in a way. Not only that, but I also wanted to continue my pursuit of studying fashion design, and finding a way of how to lead it into art therapy.

So I'm Moving to chicago next year, starting fresh with no ties, going back to college with fashion as my major, and children studies as a minor. I'm going to take some workshops in Chicago for art therapy, and Design. My goal is to open up an art therapy school in Colombia (SA), for people who have mental disablities, social problems, or who have had troubled lives at home.

If I can't find a way of getting a masters in art thearpy after graduating, I want to at least make sure that when I move to Colombia I can start my own fashion business to actually fund the school I want to start up there. It's alot of ambition, I know that. But nothing is impossible in this world. And having people who believe in me actually makes it a lot easier for me to accomplish and pull through with. :)

I don't know if it will all happen. But I'm going to work damn hard to make it so.

[Veronica Dreadful]

LAW SCHOOL OR BUSINESS SCHOOL? OMGULZ!! :unsure:

[station to station]

I have one everyday.... I kid.

I had one when I was seven years old white taking a shite.
I was thinking about Cap'n Crunch and then I just got all existential.

[laurieann]

evy, on Nov 21 2007, 11:26 AM, said:

i had one of those a few months ago. after finding out about my dad having another family (whilst still being married to my mom), that a person i loved had actually lied to me, and that it didn't seem like i was ever going to get out of here, i had a melt down. I wondered why I was here, What i was doing, and felt like i was going to spend the rest of my life living in NY miserably. I have a job, and although I love it, it isn't what i wanted to do all my life. I've always wanted to be an artist, a designer, a phootgrapher, and a psychologist (of sorts). I want to do so many things, and I felt I couldn't. I freaked out and had a nervouse breakdown. I began some sort of downward spiral of drinking and drugs, just to ease the feeling that I had absolutely no control over myself or my life.I didn't know what to do.

Then I just woke up and said 'I have to get out of here'. So I started looking at new places to live. Then I realised, that I no longer wanted to be in NY. I realised that NY was my comfort zone, and that I have been having it easy in a way. Not only that, but I also wanted to continue my pursuit of studying fashion design, and finding a way of how to lead it into art therapy.

So I'm Moving to chicago next year, starting fresh with no ties, going back to college with fashion as my major, and children studies as a minor. I'm going to take some workshops in Chicago for art therapy, and Design. My goal is to open up an art therapy school in Colombia (SA), for people who have mental disablities, social problems, or who have had troubled lives at home.

If I can't find a way of getting a masters in art thearpy after graduating, I want to at least make sure that when I move to Colombia I can start my own fashion business to actually fund the school I want to start up there. It's alot of ambition, I know that. But nothing is impossible in this world. And having people who believe in me actually makes it a lot easier for me to accomplish and pull through with. :)

I don't know if it will all happen. But I'm going to work damn hard to make it so.

Can we get an update??

I can't say I've really had a true, existential crisis. Looking back to the wikipedia link:

I've felt alone and isolated.

However, I do not feel like there is NO afterlife, or that it is negative unless you were a total, unrepentant shit on earth. I do believe my life has purpose. My life might not have the grand purpose that touches a large number of lives, but it touches my children, my husband, my family, my friends, co-workers, etc., etc.

I have wondered if there's something else I should be doing with the majority of my time, but not to the extent where I feel no purpose or totally negative, depressed.